Reflection 6

Amarfy Marte
Reflection # 6
03/18/09

Reflection # 6


So today didn’t go as well as last week, like I predicted. Well I got there at the usual time and again I was nervous/ scared. I don’t know why I always feel that way when I’m going to or at the restaurant. It is probably because of Ash and Phyllis. They were both at the restaurant today. Now I know that what they are teaching me is very valuable and helpful but I just don’t like the fact at how they are teaching me. I know that I’m different because unlike some people who probably learn better when their instructors are harder on them, I tend to do a crappy job when I’m under that type pressure. It sucks a lot but I guess it is something I’m just going to have to get used to.

Like I said before, Ash and Phyllis were both there today so I started to get that feeling that I hate. I tried to do everything that was asked of me to the best of my ability but most times that isn’t enough for Ash. Phyllis was either in the front or downstairs so basically I was by myself again. At first I didn’t mind but after a while, once it started to get busy I did. Finally during one order Phyllis came to help me out but after that she left again. Working my station by myself doesn’t make me feel comfortable. I like working with at least one other person at all times, it just helps me work better knowing someone is there helping me. Since I was basically by myself, all of the orders weren’t ready on time because I wasn’t going fast enough. It was also very busy so I couldn’t do it all by myself. I knew Ash was getting aggravated with me, I could just tell by his tone and facial expressions. I’m not usually intimidated by people, but I am by Ash. That feeling of intimidation doesn’t help me one bit at cooking. It is actually a downfall. I hate that fact that he daunts me affects everything I do in a bad way. The reason why he does intimidate me I think is because of the way he talks to me and the fact that I cant say anything back. If I do he might get really mad and kick me out. I can’t let that happen because I NEED this in order for me to graduate. I hold my pride and my tongue a lot at this cite merely for the fact that I have to or I don’t graduate with my fellow classmates.
Overall, today I did what I usually do which is make salads, make and cook pizzas, catfish, fries, chicken tenders, onion rings, Blaze nachos, etc. Given that I have no one to help me, to guide me I have my note sheet, I wrote down everything I’ve made and how to make them. But I guess both Ash and Phyllis don’t want me to because last week Ash scolded me and this week Phyllis did about how I shouldn’t use it, even though they are the ones who told me to take notes in the first place. But it is cool though. Phyllis just told me to study my sheet and write each of the foods on different post-its. Next week should go better hoping I have a bit of luck. I just want to be better for Ash and Phyllis.